Dianara's Reflections...

Yeah...what is marriage the second time around eh? Don't know if there's anything much I can say for now for it's only been about 3 weeks that I remarried. But what I can say is that it feels good and I am embarking on a new journey somewhat... for in this marriage, I have parents-in-law! In my former marriage, I only had sisters and brothers-in-law and that too, I have known them since childhood. Anyway, my parents-in-law are very lovely people...down to earth, humble and unimposing...simple people in fact and I am comfortable with them. Of course it takes getting used to calling my father-in-law 'baba' but then, I could...haha...Calling my mother-in-law 'mak' was easier cause I have been doing that since before I got married. I am married to a wonderful guy 11 years my junior and so far, I don't have any problems with that. The age difference does not bother me at all...the more so with my husband. I still respect and obey him as how a wife should....

Try as I may and try as I might, it's not easy at times to forgive people what they have done to me. The severity of the action and deed is just too much to bear and to be forgiven...especially when it's done by your own kin. If it's by others, I don't think I will be bothered too much for they are no ties that bind. It's been 3 years now...and it's still difficult for me to forget as well what had happened and the ensuing 'events', as how I will put it. I was the victim but I was made to look and deemed otherwise. Tales were carried and spread here and there and people seemed to believe even though they don't know me. All because of the great 'actress' who had convincingly poisoned peoples minds into thinking negatively about me. How sad can that be? How unimaginable that a kin whom one has always helped when needed can turn 360 degrees! All the lies, dramas and masquerade could have been tailor made for a movie too! How awesome can that...

1978...Sultan Ibrahim Girls's School, Johor Baru. I was 15 years old and in Form 3 then. My dad was transferred to Kem Majidee JB from RMC in Sungai Besi. Was supposed to continue schooling in Assunta Secondary but my grandfather died at the end of 1977. I was supposed to live with him during my SRP year. Oh well, I found myself following my family down to JB instead. One day,  a school mate came up to me with a letter. It was a letter from an admirer. It was signed Hillary Ang. If I am not mistaken, I replied once only. It was a surprise for me actually. It seemed, he saw me sitting alone, at my school canteen one afternoon. He was there to assist his senior in coaching the school's hockey team. Well, I didn't know then. After that letter, I saw him again at a sporting meet at a stadium. It was the MSSD and I was in the school relay team. He was there to support his school too I guess. Anyway, that was that. At the end of the year, my dad was transferred back to KL a...

So, it has been 2 over years now that my account is still intact and I am still using the name Lady Dianara Kamil. Don't think it's gonna be deleted anymore...hopefully...haha When I first went on FB, I was still married then. Though I had my fair share of admirers, there are more now that I am divorced! I get messages sent to my Inbox with all sorts of propositions that when I think back, it was kinda funny but in a way, I felt happy, maybe, that at this age, I still had guys, younger ones too, mind you, going after me! But there must always be caution and reservations. Some of these younger guys only want to have fun but there are a few in my list who have been good friends with me and I will always treasure their friendship. One name that I would like to mention here is Hazri Mhd. He has been a true friend since day one I was on FB and I hope our friendship will remain strong for many, many more years. Thank you Hazri Mhd...*muahhhhhsssss At this point in time, I am quit...

When I first got myself 'embroiled' in FB, it was for a reason. To look up an old friend whom I knew more than 20 years ago. Well, I found that friend and we got in touch again, and that was that. I thought of deactivating my FB account after I found my friend again but by then, I had many new friends so I stayed on till the first time my account got deleted by FB.  At first, I didn't want to open a new account cause I was not so into facebooking but some friends were looking for me so I opened another account using another name. When I went back in, I went to this friend's wall after adding him again and a status he had in there really made me laugh out loud. I can't remember exactly how he wrote it but it went something like this...'Nik Yasmin Dianara Kamil ( this is the name in my first account) also known as Kak Manis, where are you?' hahaha...he was looking for me it seems cause I was nowhere to be found. With the new account, I think I used the n...

Am back on Facebook folks...2 days earlier than 1 week,  I think it was. Oh well, though I am back on FB, I still got to do what needed to be done. Went 'around' groups' walls checking on what's new...well, there were lots of new stuff but I felt lazy to go look at everything. Too many updates as well. Even found myself in a new group called Retro Music. Now that's a cool group where everyone can be a DJ and post songs from yester years. Gosh! Didn't know there were so many songs I have never even heard before! How uncool can that be huh?..haha...Oh well, at least I am learning new stuff now, on Retro Music!...LOL I am feeling kinda lazy at this moment...especially to update my FB status. Can't think of anything that could garner interesting comments from friends. Well actually, there are times when I would like to share my thoughts and ideas but putting them down in words were giving me headaches...haha.  Before I had an FB account,  I was not ...

Daddy dearest, It's 22 years ago since you've been gone daddy. 22 long years without your presence. You left a void in our lives, especially in mum's. She lost her other half that made her whole, she lost a friend whom she could share her thoughts with but most of all, she lost a loving husband who she was dependent on for so many things in her life. A man who made her feel safe, a man who protected her from harm, a man who loved her with every beat of his heart. We, your 4 daughters lost the best daddy in the world. We lost a loving and understanding daddy, a man who was so protective of us, though it was a bit cloying at times daddy...hehe. We know you meant well and didn't want any harm to come to us, but daddy, sometimes, it was good if you could just have let things be...In some ways, you did spoil us. You didn't even let us take the bus to go anywhere...I think we only knew how to take the bus when we were all in college or overseas! ...